Faithful

Frustration.
I guess that is the best word to describe my mood at the moment. (I'm a girl, that can change rather quickly) I sit in bed questioning a lot of things. My eyes wide open while my brain is spinning. Doubts that I have oozed back into my thoughts. Doubts that entitle many things.

 Future. Friends. Family. Faith. Fears. And each is much broader than just the dictionary definition.
I have so many insecurities. Ones that most of you would be shocked hearing.
"If you don't go with me through thick and thin, you don't deserve me. If your first concern is to look at yourself, you'll never find yourself. But if you forget about yourself and look to me, you'll find both yourself and me." Matthew 10:38-39

I will continue to hold on to that. Even when I don't want too. Even when I just want to forget everything and long for a chance to start all over again. I wait with patience and a heavy heart. For lots of answers to questions I can barely ask.

All I know is that He is faithful. And will deliver me despite my growing fears. For He is good, when there's nothing good in me.  

Chanley